Another Side Of The Story Ch.7

"Dora, you feeling ok? You seem really out of it right now?" question Darren as I stared out into my thoughts, I wasn't even concentrating in what I was doing or where I was going. Suddenly I hit something hard but warm unlike a pole which I thought I had hit. I looked up and noticed Darren's concerned look in his eyes.
"Dora, did you hear me? You are completely spaced out. What's wrong with you?" Darren questioned me for the second time.
"Umm... Why were you in front of me? I was so sure you were next to me a minute ago." I questioned him a little confused with the whole situation.
"See that pole behind me. If I didn't stand in your way than the next thing you fit would be something cold and hard and I am sure that would hurt a lot more than something soft meaty body like me. I didn't want you to get a big bump on your head, what would your mum think if she saw it." Darren replied as he guided me back on to the right path.
" To be honest, Darren. You hurt just as much with that hard muscular chest you have there." I joked with him hoping he would avoid questioning me about what was on my mind however after a few chuckles he questioned me a third time whether I was ok. I stared at the ground for a few seconds struggling to get words out of my mouth. After a couple of minutes, I finally opened my mouth but instead of answering his question, I ended up avoiding it again.
" Darren, why don't you go home first I want to go to the café store across the street and get a drink." I explained to Darren however he insisted to stay with me. After a long disagreement in whether he should stay or not, I finally convinced him to go home without me and watched his figure slowly disappear from sight.

At the coffee shop, I order the same thing I had the first time I met Patrick in hopes that he would come around here so that I get a chance to found out why he was avoiding me so much. After 2 hours of customers rolling in out until the store manager had to ask me to leave as they where closing for the night. I slowly began walking home pondering on reason why he would avoid me so much. As I reached the playground near my house I decided to take a detour into the park as I rested on the swings, watching the skies and sun setting in the distance. My mind started the space out and unaware of my surroundings or the dangers that was moving closer and closer towards me. I could hear mumbles in the distance as it grew slightly loud however I choose to ignore them.

"Hey isn't it that our leader's girlfriend's friend sitting on the swings?" Boy A whispered to Boy B.
"I think it is, I don't know what the group did but he is a like a different person." Boy B replied
"I know right he this keeps up, our gang would become vulnerable. I got an idea, lets eliminate the threats of changing the leader." Boy A stated while Boy B agreed.

Meanwhile, I hadn't heard a single word that spoken between the two boys as I slowly noticed two bulky shadows becoming extremely close to me. I knocked myself back into reality and noticed two boys around my age stood in front of me. From there looks, I could tell they weren't hear to have a nice chat with me. I got up from the swings and slowly inch away from them however, they kept coming closer and closer until the cornered me against a wall.
"What do you guys want from me?" as I tired to show a tough side of me. The two boys said nothing but chuckle among themselves as they were beginning to pounce on me, I closed my eyes and was ready to scream for help before I sense another figure standing in front of me. It was then when I heard a very familiar deep voice.
"Is there a problem here?" The deep voice questioned boys, as I opened my eyes I noticed the two boys back away from the guy right in front of me. It finally hit me who had came to my rescue but I need to make sure. I rushed in front of him and stare at my rescuer face as I felt a smile beginning to form as I finally saw him for the first time today.
"Patrick, Why. . . How. . . Thank you for helping me." I smiled at him as I noticed a small smile on his face as he watched me thank him.
"You shouldn't be out at night alone, it isn't very safe you know." informed Patrick as he walked me home. At that moment, I felt unexplainable happiness overwhelm me as it felt as though he was concerned and worried for me. I quickly snapped out of this sensation as I need to found out the reason he choose to avoid me today. I questioned about how I barely saw him and it sort of seemed like he was avoiding me today. For the next couple of minutes, he was silent and I was began to feel uncomfortable with how long the silence was lasting. Finally, he let out a deep breathe and he opened his mouth to explain to me how he was worried about getting to close to me but somehow he couldn't stay away. I stared blankly at him not understanding his struggle and I knew he understood how confused I was.
"Dora, you just have to know that things are a little complicated with me and I don't want to get you involved in anything. . . All you need to know is that I won't be avoiding you anymore." He smiled at me reassuring me. However, from his explanation made me feel uncertain and confused not knowing what secrets he is hiding from me. On the other hand, he had promised that he won't be avoiding me which alternatively means that we would be like the day before talking and laughing and that was what I wanted in the first place.

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We started talking normally after his explanation all the way until I reached my home where I noticed my mum was outside looking for me. I ran up to her and hugged her while she asked if I was ok as she was getting worried.

"I'm fine now, thanks to my friend here Patrick." I explained. My mum was a little confused however invited him to have dinner with us. Darren didn't seem very excited to see Patrick however when he saw me he hugged me and was kept asking if I was ok. He had felt so bad for leaving me alone even though I reassured him I was fine and that it was I who wanted him to go home first. Meanwhile at dinner, I noticed that Patrick had something on his mind however he still seem to enjoy himself. As I watched him leave for home I felt something strange about him somewhat lonely, it makes me curious about him as he has so much mysteries and so much I don't know about him. From that night, I felt the need to uncover his secrets and hoped to make him feel as happy as I did with him that night.

 

*again didn't edit it so sorry about the mistakes which there is probably a lot. Also sorry for not posting this in a long time. I have been really busy and to be honest a little not bother uploading more about this story but we'll see.*



Another Side Of The Story Ch.6

"Good morning class. Today, I going to introduce a new student and has just transferred here. His name is Patrick, please come in and introduce yourself." introduced the teacher as she enter the room with a guy following not far behind her.
"Hello, my name is Patrick. Nice to meet you all" Greeted Patrick. As he turned his face to look at the class and introduce himself to everyone in our class, I immediately realised that he was the same guy he saved me yesterday.
"Belinda, Yuki, he was the guy I meet yesterday. I can't believe he was transferring to this school." I whispered to Belinda and Yuki who were sitting next to me on a table of 4. I turned my head to face the front and found my eyes in his. The moment he noticed me, his mouth started to curve into a warm smile and unconsciously so did I at the same time I could hear all the girls in the room sigh romantically. The teacher looked around the room to find a place for him to sit and a person to show him around the school grounds as she was searching, Patrick decided to make his move first as I watched him walk slowly towards my friends and I while every girl he passed let out a sigh of disappointment.
" So you come to this school too. It is nice to see you again, Dora." Patrick greeted while all the girls glared or were in shock that I had already knew him already. I smiled shyly back at him not sure what to say especially when the whole class was staring right at me.
" Well, Patrick since you seem to already know Dora why don't you sit on her table and she shall show around the school. I hope you don't mind, Dora." instructed the teacher. I nodded in agreement as he sat next to me.

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 After the class, Patrick and I had compared timetables and I realised that we had almost every class together other than PE. It so happened that on this day we had every class together and so throughout the day I showed him around the school to our different classes, talking and laughing just like we were at the coffee shop the day before. I felt a lot of eyes following us as we walked by which normally I would feel very uncomfortable with but for some reason when I was with Patrick and just  conversing like normal friends I couldn't feel the gaze as strong as I usually would. In fact at times I completely neglected the fact that there were heaps of eyes gazing at us. During lunch I brought him over to the group of friends that I always seat with to eat.
"Hey guys, let me introduce to you Patrick. He is new today and I thought I invite him to eat with us for lunch." I explained to the group. Belinda, Yuki and Joel greeted him happily however Darren kept silent the whole time.
"Patrick, huh? It is very nice to meet you." Roger said however there was something in his voice that made me feel like he didn't mean what he said.
"Same here," replied Patrick in the same kind of voice. They shook hands with each other and seem to have gripped each others hand extremely tightly as there hands where both slowly turning white. I looked at them suspiciously and confused at there behaviour with each other as it almost looed like they knew each other or had some kind of bad past with each other. They immediately let go as if they were trying to hide any tension that was arising between them however it was pretty obvious something was up. The rest of the lunch time was perfectly fine other than Roger and Patrick who seem to avoid each other and part of me felt that Patrick was starting to distance himself with the group including me. It could have been that I was thinking to much but there was an unusual feeling between us that was different to how we interacted before. Even during the afternoon I felt that he kept his distance as though he didn't want to get involved with me anymore. This feeling made me feel very unease and curious to what the reason behind his mysterious behaviour but I decided to push it aside and continue trying to become good friends with Patrick as I still remember that warm feeling I felt the day before.
"Hey Patrick, if you are not doing anything do you wanna go to the same coffee shop we met at again after school?" I questioned hoping that he would agree and if I had the chance sort out the uncomfortable feeling I was getting from him.
" Umm. . . Sorry, I am actually quite busy this afternoon so I might not be able to come with you. But maybe tomorrow or the day after that." He replied as his voice sounded slightly unease. I nodded feeling a little disappointed and more so worried about what could I have done to made him act this way towards me. I had thought that we had something special or at least could have made good friends but from the way he is acting now it felt that this might not happen anymore. I decided to be more optimistic and keep trying cause I couldn't forget the feeling I got at the coffee shop so I have figure out what could be causing this.

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The next day was the same as yesterday afternoon except he avoided me even more to the point I rarely even saw him. I noticed a lot of girls gazing and I knew they must be wondering why Patrick hadn't be around me as often as he was the previous day. This time the gazes made me even more uncomfortable than it usually did as I knew they were judging and probably making up random reason in their heads to figure out what had happen between us. I continued to search for Patrick throughout the day because I needed to know the reason he was avoiding me and what made his attitude change so much towards me. I wasn't able to during lunch time as Belinda, Yuki and I had choir practice therefore the 3 of us left of the music room immediately after he chow down our lunch. While we were practicing me thoughts kept racing through my head trying to figure out whats wrong and the reason for his behaviour but I just couldn't understand.

"Dora, please concentrate. You are going all off tune and in fact you had almost completely stopped singing towards the middle of the song. It is not the time to be daydreaming right now." lectured the teacher as I was knocked back to reality. I apologise and the group restarted the song from the beginning, this time I paid full attention to what I need to do. Towards the 2nd verse, I had to sing solo as I was singing I noticed a familiar figure standing at the door. At first I couldn't recognise but soon enough I realised that it was Patrick standing outside listening, knowing this made me feel more at ease and felt the need to show off as I decided to pay extra attention to my sing. As the song ended, I could see his figure slowly retreating away from the door therefore I ask the music teacher if we could take a couple minute break before rushing outside to catch up to him. However when, I reach outside the room, I could just see him race around the corner and out of sight. Once again I had let him slip away just like the many times I already done so today, I decided that it would have taken to much time to continue the chase and returned back into the room. I will found out the reason for him to avoid me and I want to be able to become friends with him, resolving any misunderstandings there might be between us but it might have to take a while or at least to when I can actually catch up to him and have a proper conversation. I will find out. 

*Sorry too tired to edit this post this time, so please excuse any mistakes but hope you enjoyed this chapter nonetheless.*

Another Side Of The Story Ch.5

“Hey Dora, What do you have for lunch today? Questioned Roger while taking a bite from the lunch Belinda had made for him the night before. The two of them had been dating for quite some time now and I have never seen the two of them separate from each other than if they had different classes or when they each had to depart to go home. However Roger normally send Belinda home before making his own way back home.
“My mum made fried rice for Darren and I today. How about you? What did Belinda make for you this time? So lucky Belinda never made anything for me before.” I smirked as I teased the new couples Roger blushed and continued to chow down the delicious love bento from Belinda while she begins to talk back to me.
“Hey I made food for you when you came over to my house before? You can’t say I never made anything for you.” Belinda retorted. I laughed and smiled.
“Ahh yes. The chill ramen that almost killed me I remember now.” I replied her teasingly. I could tell Belinda was a little bashful about it and I couldn’t help have a huge smile on my face.
“I never got to taste Belinda’s cooking that is not fair.” called out Yuki with Joel following behind her.
“You don’t need Beautiful to cook for you because you should be worrying about cooking yourself.” I smiled at her. She glared at me as I noticed a small ting of red appear on her cheek while from behind I could see Joel placing his index finger in front of his lips telling me to be quiet and I just couldn’t help but laugh. Everyone could see that Joel has fallen for Yuki ever since we first became friends with him in year 7 but Yuki is oblivious to it. We all knew that before Yuki and Joel mutual have feelings for each other but love truly makes people blind and oblivious to their surroundings.
“Hey what about you don’t you want to make food for anyone in particular?” questioned Roger while everyone stared at me as if there is someone in my life that I would I like and willing to make a lunch for. Everyone seems to be hinting something to me but I never understood what they meant, the only person that is as close to me as Belinda and Yuki was Darren but I always treated him like a friend or maybe even an older brother at times. I didn’t believe that he would have ever had any feelings for me. I didn’t think too much into instead everyone just ate together and talked like we normally would.
“Hey Dora, where is Darren he would usually come with you to sit with us and have lunch.” Belinda asked.  
“Oh, he is has soccer practice so he can’t join us for lunch today and after school in fact. They are practicing really hard for the competition this weekend.” I answered them and they nodded in understanding before continue eating their lunch.

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Finally all classes has ended and everyone went their separate ways, Belinda and  Roger left on a date, Joel and Yuki went to catch the train together while Darren stayed behind at school for soccer practice. I left the school grounds walking in the directions of my house while I was listening to music from my phone. Halfway home I decided, I go to the nearby coffee shop across the road to get something warm to drink. It was pretty cold and I really just wanted to run and get a hot chocolate and rush home to the warmth of my room. So without thinking I look from both side few a second before I crossed the road. I suddenly heard a distant beep of a car horn and turned around to see a blue car coming closer and closer to me. Memories of the incident when I was young caused me to stop in the middle of the road forgetting that I should run at of the way. I watched as the car came closer and closer as the tires screeched against the road. My surroundings began to blur as I felt a strong warm arm wrapped around me spinning me out of reach of the car as it forcefully stopped at where I was standing only moments ago. I closed my eyes for a few seconds as my surroundings were spinning in front of my eyes were causing me to feel slightly dizzy. When I reopened them, I noticed two small, dark brown eyes shining at me with a concerned look on his face. I gazed into his eyes for a while forgetting I was still in his arms, something about him kept me from turning away. For some reason, I felt protect, safe and something warm that I never felt before. There is something about him that I just couldn’t put my fingers on but I couldn’t think about that at that moment as we were disturbed be the driver.

“Be careful, you two. You gonna get yourself killed like that.” Yelled the driver before drivng away. I suddenly remember where I was and stood up straight moving out of the warm, protective arms of the strange guy and bowed my head down and thanked him for helping me.

“No problem, I could never stand on the side lines and watch a cute girl like you get hurt.” He smiled sweetly. I blushed and thanked him again, insisting I treat him to something. I had to thank this guy for saving my life and some part of me wanted to know more about him. After some persisting, he agreed and we walked towards the coffee shop and I brought both of us a hot chocolate while we sat inside the shop and started conversing with one another for almost over 2 and half hours. When I finally noticed the time, I apologised as I had to get home before my mum starts to worry about me.

“By the way, my name is Dora. What is your name?” I asked as I stood up ready to leave.

“Patrick. It was very nice to meet you Dora. I hope I can see you again soon. Let’s exchange details and maybe we could talk more next time.” He responded

“Sure,” as I gave him my details while collecting his details. I said my goodbyes and went on my way back home, along the way I saw Darren and walked home with him as he questioned me on why I was so late. Knowing he would worry for me if he knew I nearly got hit by a car, I decided to just tell him I stayed at the coffee shop for over 2 and half hours. I hope I could see that guy again, something about him made me feel something that I still couldn’t but my finger on.  I felt that I would be destined to see him again and I just hoped it would be soon.

Another Side Of The Story Ch.4

Throughout the day, I could feel Darren's gaze on me continuously as if he wants to come up to me and say something however he doesn't know what to say. I continued to avoid him. I wasn't able to face him, not when I can't convince him to be happy and forget the accident when I couldn't move on from my own trauma.  Throughout class, I would either look at the teacher or back down on my desk. I couldn't bear to look at Belinda either cause I knew she would have a worried and concerned look on her face. I needed more time, just a little more time to let me lock up that chest again.
" Alright students, we would now be watching a video about the history of cars. Take mental notes on the video and we would be discussing the content of the video after." explained the teacher as she was preparing the video in front of the class. As I watched a video, I noticed how the modern cars was created and test for the safety of the car. The modelled car in video began accelerating towards a wall until it crashed into the wall resulting in the inflation of the air bag. As I watched that scene, I felt a sudden head rush as I saw flashes of my past race before my eyes. Bright Headlights. Tyres Screeching. A man wearing a black T-Shirt. Blood dripping. Shock yet relief expression. Screams mixed in with sirens. People everywhere from all directions. Crying, screaming, yelling.
" AHHHHHH," I screamed as I pushed my chair back and start crouching on the floor rocking back and forth. Simultaneously Belinda had stood up from her chair and knelt beside me, trying to comfort me.
" Dora, are you ok?" called the teacher as she made her way towards me.
" Not my fault, not my fault, not my fault. Right? Not my fault, he is still here. still here. Not my fault." I mumbled repetitively.
" Miss, I think I should take door outside for a while. She's. . . She is feeling a little stressed and traumatised." explained Belinda as I continued to rock back and forth repeating the same lines over and over again. Teacher looked at me for a second and then agreed as Belinda lead me out of the classroom into the playground. I could feel everyone's eyes including Darren's confused and concerned eyes, on me as the watch me stumble out of the classroom with Belinda. Belinda brought me to a bench near a tree as I continued to mumble the same lines over and over again.

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" Miss, May I go to the Bathroom? I am sort of busting." Darren called out once he was allowed to he left the room and in hopes to see me along the way. As he walked out of the building, he noticed Belinda and I in the distance and decided to quietly get closer to listen to what we were talk about.
" Dora, listen to me. It is not your fault. It was an accident. . . an accident. . . Understand An. . . Accident." comforted Belinda but I ignored her and continued to mumble to myself.
" DORA, Look at me." Belinda instructed as she lifted my head up to face her. I looked into to her concerned eyes and I immediately broken down into tears.
" Belinda, It is all my fault. It is all my fault. I shouldn't have ran onto the street. Than. . . Than he wouldn't save me and. . . and he wouldn't die." I cried.
" Dora, look at me. . . It wasn't your fault. You were young and you didn't understand nor did you know that it was a bad idea to run on the street. But you have to know he loved you, your dad loved you otherwise he would have never risked his life to save you. You were worth saving. Don't waste your life time that he protected for, on you crying over an unwanted accident. You know he loved you and you know your friends and family loves you. No one blames you. Ok. No one blames you." Belinda comforted. My sobs began to become more and more quieter as I began to process what Belinda had informed me. She was right, I had already went through some many therapy and wasted some much time mourning and blaming myself when nobody else did.
" Not my fault. No one blames me. Not my fault. No one blames me." I started to mumbled to myself as I reassured myself. The more I reassured, the more calm I felt and I constantly felt Belinda's silently next to me helping me feel my relaxed. After a few minutes I was feeling a lot better and a lot calmer.
" Belinda. . . I think, I'm ok now. Lets go back." I lightly smiled at Belinda as she nodded and stood up to return to the classroom. As we started walking towards the building, we saw Darren standing behind the tree his eyes filled we guilt and not sure what to say. There was a few seconds of silence until I was about to break the silence but not before Belinda. She looked passed him still angry at him from before.
" Let's go back to class. . . You should head back too Darren. The teacher would get worried." she said before taking me back to class. I looked at him as we passed by but he seemed a little to stunned to have noticed. I could hear him behind me as he followed us back to class.
" Ahh, there you guys are I was beginning to worry where you guys were and ask someone to search for you guys. Darren that was a very long toilet break, I might have to reconsider letting you go next time." greeted the teacher as we entered.
" Sorry miss, He was with me. He saw me at the bench earlier and came to check if I was alright. Sorry to have taken up his time for so long." I replied. The teacher understood and replied that she is glad we were safe before instructing us to go back to our seats as she continued our lesson.

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It was the end of the school, Darren walked behind me as usual as we walked back home. This time it felt a bit different as I didn't know how to comfort nor did I know how to start a conversation with him after everything that had happened between us. Neither did he.
" Dora. . . Lets go to the park today." Darren finally said. This was the first time other than early today he had properly talked to me since he came back from the accident. I smiled, and agreed as changed my route and headed for the park. Once we arrived at the park we both sat on the swings, gentle rocking back and forth. There was an awkward silence but he decided that he had to say something before it was too late.
". . . I'm very sorry, Dora. . . I. . . I didn't know that. . . I didn't expect. . ." Darren stumbled. He paused before he whispered to himself " Come on. Why is this so hard?"
" It is ok, Darren I understand. You don't expect anyone to know about these feelings. Like I said before I understand." I confirmed.
" Look, I'm sorry. I really didn't wanna hurt you like I did."
" Don't worry. I was a little annoying but I wanted you to cheer up. I know you have to mourn after a loved one has passed on but you have to move on with life, especially what we have been through. Even though we were young and it is hard to let go of your parent or parents at our age or younger but what they did was for us to live on. It is for us to live a full and happily life and we can't let what they sacrificed for us go to waste right? Just like how Belinda comforted me. No one blames you." I cheerfully said. Darren smiled at me and nodded as he reassured that he would return to normal as soon as he can and stop letting me worry.
" And now, race you home." Darren called as he started to sprint out of the park while I raced to catch up.
" Hey not fair, you cheater." I yelled back as we ran all the way home and I felt that we had become a better and closer friends. We were both smiling, laughing and panting when we got home.

Another Side Of The Story Ch.3

" Let's go to the park." I called out to Darren. He stood behind me, his head still staring at the ground. He had been like that ever since we left the school and followed behind me like a shadow. Entering the park I tried many different activities that we would usually do in the past however he would just follow my actions mindlessly. After many futile attempts nothing seem to catch his attention or even get his mind of the miserable thoughts that might be roaming within his head. The sky was slowly darkening as the last light gradually became less visible beyond the horizon.
" It is getting late, we should get home." I mumbled as I felt disheartened from all the useless attempts to cheer Darren up. I forced myself to keep smiling and kept talking to him, trying to make him respond regardless how worthless my attempts were. The minute we got home, he walked ahead and left for his room, he never came out unless called for dinner. I looked at my mum feeling helpless however she gave me an encouraging looking at me as if she knew I would be able to break through his bubble and get him to return to his original personality. I took a deep breathe and tried to look optimistic, telling myself " I can do this. I can get him out of this phase. Believe Dora, you got this. Now I will have to just try again tomorrow, I know I can get through to him. . . Hopefully."

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A week went by and nothing I have done seem to have worked, I had even gotten Ryeowook, Yuki and Belinda to help me but he was unresponsive as always and continued to follow behind me like a shadow. The only time he left my side was when he need to go bathroom, recess, lunch or at home when he locked himself in his room. I was slowly beginning to lose hope but I knew that if I had lost hope than there is no chance in him walking out of his grief. 

" Come on Adorable, cheer up we got this, ok. Our hard work will pay of sooner or later. Just smile." comforted Belinda. 

" Your right Beautiful. If we can do this, no one else can. Lets give it another shot." I smiled as we made our way towards Darren who had been sitting at a bench staring at his sandwich without moving a single muscle.  

" Darren~" I called cheerfully even though I knew I wasn't getting a response out of him. 

" You know, Belinda and I were just talking about how you always sit alone. We thought you might like it if you can sat with us. You won't be alone as much and we can have lots of fun." I waited for a response but nothing. 

" You know you can play handball with Ryeowook. He is pretty good. . ." commented Belinda however there was still no response. 

" Come on. . ." said Belinda this time, she grabbed hold of his arm and lightly pulling his arm forward, trying to get him to move. However he shrugged her hand off and remain in place like he hadn't moved at all. 

" Come on Darren. You need to make some friends and you know move on with life. . ." 

" You think it is easy to forget what happened. You think it is easy to see your parents die right in front of you. Do you think I can forget that my parents jumped in front of me to protect me from getting hurt? You don't understand how much it hurts knowing that if it wasn't for me, they might just have survived. YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW BAD I FEEL TO KNOW THAT IF IT WASNT FOR ME THEY WOULD BE ALIVE. . . They jumped in front of me so. . . so that I wouldn't get stabbed by the metal pipe from wing of the airplane. . . It was my fault. . . MY FAULT!!!" Yelled out Darren. Everyone near by turn and faced us simultaneously to see what was all the yelling about. I stood there frozen, tears forcing its way out of my eyes but I tried, I tried so hard to stop them from streaming down my face but, my emotions got the better of me. I didn't know what to say cause every word he spoke felt like daggers piercing though my chest. Memories, pains, nightmares and all the horror flashed back to me in those few words and I couldn't hold them back. He unlocked that hidden chest I kept buried within my heart for these many years and everything inside just came pouring out. Belinda watched him in shock and look towards me with a knowing looked before her eyes saw red as she glared back at Darren.

" YOU THINK, YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO UNDERSTAND THESE FEELINGS. YOU DON'T THINK THERE MIGHT BE SOMEONE OUT THERE HE FEELS YOU AND UNDERSTANDS YOU. YOU DON'T EVEN THINK HOW HURTFUL YOUR WORDS TO SOMEONE WHO KNOWS EXACTLY HOW YOU FEEL. HOW COULD YOU JUST YELL AT YOUR CLOSEST FRIEND WHO TRYING HER BEST TO HELP YOU? HOW. . ." Belinda stopped halfway through her sentence as I had grabbed hold of her arm. She understood that I didn't want her to continue no more. 

" Don't. . . Don't worry. . . I. . . I understand. . . You need time alone and you. . . wish to deal with this by yourself. . . You don't want anyone to. . . ever come close to you cause you scared what they think when then know and your scared that you would hurt them too. You just don't wanna get close to anyone and feel like life is empty like you lost a part of you. . . I understand don't worry. . . Lets go Be. . . Beautiful." I stumbled as I felt that every word was crushing me and pushing me back to the dark days. I grabbed hold of Belinda's hand while wiping away the tears with my other before dragging her away from Darren and the stares of the people around us. Belinda didn't leave her position and stayed put so I walked away without her, feeling that I just need to get away from that place for a while, away from Darren. 

" Darren. . . Dora is trying so hard to help you walk out of your grief. She wants you to be happy and out of everyone in this world she knows you the best and how your feeling. But you keep pushing her away and gone as far as hurting her. I thought that you would have known better or at least knew her better than me. But I guess not. . . You are too caught with yourself that you don't think how others might be feeling. . . I understand. . . But I won't let you hurt my Adorable again." warned Belinda as she walked off following behind me.

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Belinda and I sat back with Yuki and Ryeowook who had also heard that yelling and watched me carefully, fully aware of my circumstance. I took a deep breathe trying to calm myself down before smiling at all of them.
" I'm fine, just a little shocked that's all. I need a few minutes to calm down." I reassured them. I fought back the tears that were determined to rush down my cheeks and forced a convincing smile. Yuki and Ryeowook look a little concerned for a few seconds before choosing to believe me but I noticed that Belinda was not convinced at all even though she choose to not bring anything up in case I start to break down. I knew she knew me well but I can't show how upset I was as all the feelings I used to feel before beginning primary school seem to all boil back to the surface and I didn't wanna feel this all over again. It is hard to lock up the chest once it has been open as everything hidden inside had spread all over the place. I just need some time to recompose myself. . . Hopefully soon. 

Another Side Of The Story Ch.2

"Darren, look." I called as I waved him over to see what I had found.
"What is it, Dora?"
"Hehe~ A 4 leaf clover. . . Here you keep it."
"Me? Why? You found it."
"Because, it would bring you luck when you leave for England tomorrow. . . I'll miss you Darren. . . When you see this it will remind you of me that way you can never forget me"
"How can I ever forget you? I'll will always treasure this 4 leaf clover."

We were at the airport now and Darren was holding his luggage in one hand while the other hand held the tightly-sealed plastic bag that held the 4 leaf clover. He smiled brightly at me waving goodbye as I watched him walk towards the airplane.

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Yawn, it has been 3 days since Darren left and I wondered how he was, if he made any new friends and if he was still thinking about me. After a while I made the decision that he had probably having to much fun over there since he hasn't contacted me since the day he left. I jumped out of bed and prepared to get ready for my 3rd year of primary school feeling extremely excited as I couldn't wait to catch up with Belinda and the others. It has been so long since we last seen each other and there is so much we needed to catch up on. 

" Morning. . ." I paused mid sentence as I noticed a dark brown hair boy sitting on the dining table. His head looked down onto the table were his cereal was placed, his arms were flopped down at his sides and he was slouching in his chair. From the back of his head, I immediately knew who he was and without a second thought I ran up behind him giving him a big hug. 

" Darren. You're back. When? Why are you here? I missed you. You haven't contact me in awhile I thought. . ." I stopped again and my eyes widened. Something was off, Darren didn't seem excited nor did he react to me hugging him like usually would. In fact, instead he stayed where he was and stared blankly at the cereal in front of him. I knew from that moment something terrible must of happened, that was why he was here and that was why he seemed so emotionless. I stood up straight again, looking at my mum who look at me with a gloom but sympathetic look on her face as her gaze slowly inched towrads Darren. I understood and walked towards my seat on the dining table as I started eating my breakfast while constantly looking at Darren wondering what I should say or what way I could try and comfort him. 

"Darren, I have enrolled you into the school with Dora. You don't have to start right away I understand if you need some time. I prepared your room, it is the second door on the left once you walked up the stairs. . . If you don't feel like eating you could go upstairs and sleep or take a shower you had a pretty rough few days. . . You still have us, I would care for you just like my own son." My mum tried to comfort him as well as try to get some kind of response out of him but without a word he left the dining table and up the stairs. We heard him walking into his room and then into the bathroom before the door closed behind him. I wanted to question my mum about what exactly happened but she already knew what I wanted to ask and immediately explained the situation. My mum wanted me to help him walk out of this grief and guilt that he is feeling right now understanding that I knew this feeling very well. I nodded and smiled back at her reassuring her that I would do my best. My mum was just about to get ready to send me to school before Darren appeared in school uniform and his bag standing at the door waiting for us. I still couldn't look into his eyes as his head hand down low and his arms dangling on his two sides.

"Darren, We can go to school together. I bet we will have lots of fun and create lots of new happy memories. Lets go" I said cheerfully trying my best to be optimistic in order to lighten up the mood. As we left the house I pulled me hand closer to his to hold on to his hand like we used to when we skipped in the park a few days ago but he immediately pulled his hand away and walked in front of me as if he didn't want me to come any closer to him. I walked beside my mum wondering what else I could do. I tried telling him how the school was and about my friends and what we could do after school but he made no response and just continued to walk with us until we reach the school. When we were inside the school, my mum instructed me to go and find my class and friends while she took Darren to the office. I watched his back walking away from me and I felt depressed that I couldn't do anything to help him but only just watch his lonely back as he walked beside my mum. Halfway through my thoughts I felt two warm arms wrapped around me, before thinking twice I already knew who it was.
"Beautiful, Long time no see. I missed you so much. How was your summer holiday?" I cried.
" Great, My mum and I went on a road trip together to Brisbane. It was so much fun. What about you, Adorable? You seemed to find a liking to that guy over there." questioned Belinda as she stared behind me. "He seems a little down if you ask me though" I turned around and explained the whole situation and that I need to help him get over this feeling. Belinda agreed and came up with a few ideas as we walked towards our new class where Ryeowook and Yuki were waiting for us.

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In our new classroom, the 4 of us sat on a table of six waiting for the teacher to call the roll but before she started she came in with a new student next to her. My eyes laid fixed on him cause I knew it was Darren again, he hadn't changed since I last saw him still with his head looking down but this time his arms were now holding onto his bag straps. 

" Good morning class. So many new faces. Today there is a new student that has joined the our class. He is new to the school so please be extra nice as you all remember how daunting you first school experience was. So Darren would you please give a self introduction." There was silenced for a minute until finally Darren lifted his head and stared blankly at the back wall. I noticed there was no emotion at all shown in his eyes and he looked awfully pale. 

" Hello, I am Darren. Nice to meet you." he announced dully with a monotonic voice. The teacher looked at him for a bit before deciding to look around to see where she should place him before I put my hand up. 

"Yes, you have a question." asked the teacher. 

" If he wants, he could come sit on our table." I responded. Darren's head turn slowly towards my direction and for a second I thought I saw his eyes soften. I saw a slightly happy yet depressing and lonely look in his eyes before he let his head dropped back down and walked towards my table and sat down before the teacher was able to respond. She watched him walk towards our table and instead of stopping she decided to let it be as she felt that there was something bothering Darren and seem to believe that being on our table would make things better. She continued with marking the roll before starting the lesson. I watched Darren as I could seem him staring blankly at the board and when it came to work we had to do, he would just bow down his head and completing the task at hand. Everything he was doing seem a little mechanic as if he was a robot doing anything he is told but has no emotions at all. Such familiar actions reminded me of dark times, I shocked my head as if to shake at the thought and decided I need to do something. I got to help him get out of this phase I know he can get through this. 

Another Side Of The Story Ch.1

"You two ready for school yet?" questioned a sweet voice from behind. I stayed silent as my mum came around giving my sister and I, our bags. My elder sister now nearing into her last years of high school as I only barely began primary. My mum with the same sweet voice from before questioned worryingly, "My baby girl, are you feeling alright about starting your first day of school? You know we can wait another year or two if you are not?" My sister stared down at me as if trying to tell me to stand tall and be brave as I face the exciting yet daunting task of facing my first day of school ever. However, she had a knowing look of how fearful I was especially after experiencing. . .
"mmhmmm, I'm ready." I smiled as bravely as I could even though deep down I was scared. Scared of meeting new people and if they found out bad things about me that they would hate. Knowing this my sister turn around and gave me a warm hug making me feel safe and secure.
" Don't worry. After school I'll take you out for ice-cream. Just smile and be your happy self like you were. . . like you always are" reassured my sister. I nodded and promised her I will before we left the house.

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"Morning everyone, I know you all must be excited yet also nervous starting your first day of school. Don't worry, I have an activity that allow you guys feel at ease and make new friends" greeted the teacher. She looked rather nice and smiled brightly at every student. The classroom was filled with tables and chairs organised in groups as well as boards around the room that looks like it was once filled with pictures or paintings. Every other student was sitting on the floor listening intently at the teacher. Some were smiling and looked very excited while others look rather nervous or scared. I closed my eyes for awhile and thought to myself that I promised to be happy and smile so I must not show my weak side to anyone else. When I reopened my eyes, I lifted the sides of my mouth upwards and looked at the teacher as if I was eager to learn and participate in our first activity. 

" Alright, for this activity I would like you to get up and move around the room for a bit." requested the teacher. Immediately after everyone stood up on their own two feet and begin walking around the room waiting for the teacher next instruction. 

"Now, I would like you to find another a person who is born in the same month as you." instructed the teacher. Some student had trouble identifying the month they were born in and needed assistance. As for myself, I began searching the room hoping to find someone nice to starting talking to. Just as I was beginning to search I felt a light tap on my shoulder, I turned to find a girl smiling happily at me with her eyes shining with excitement. I saw something in her that made me feel calm, at ease and somehow made me feel like she was someone that would stay in my life for many years to come.
"Hello, So what month are you born in?" she questioned catching me off guard as I stumbled to respond to her question.
" Ahh. . . Hi, I'm. . . I was born in October. What about you?" I replied.
" Great, I found my pair. I'm Belinda by the way, whats your name?" she asked again. Something about her made me feel happy and that was when I truly started to smile and not because I promised too.
" I'm Dora, Nice to meet you. I feel that we would be best friends." I cheerfully chimed. She nodded in agreement as we stood side by side chatting, as we waited for other pairs to be made and the teacher's next instruction.
" Now that everyone is in pairs, I would be placing each pair on a table. When everyone is seated, please introduce yourself to the people on your table." informed the teacher. Belinda and I was seated at a 4 seated table closet to the door and the pair that sat opposite of us was a girl and a boy. The girl was named Yuki, she was a bright and happy girl while the boy was named Ryeowook who seemed to be very shy but still very nice and polite. I noticed his eyes glimmered as Belinda introduce herself and as Belinda caught him staring, he immediately looked down and his cheeks turned a slight pink colour. Belinda on the other hand didn't seem to notice and smiled as she thought that he was just a little shy. Yuki and I turned to each other didn't help to smile as we knew something interesting in the future would happen.

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As the day continued, the 4 of us seem to become close friends and by the end of the day I felt a strange sensation that I couldn't help but smile. For the first time in a while, I been excited for the next day to come and happy to be able to spend every day with my new friends.
" Dora, I am here as I promised to take you for ice-cream" called my sister as she waved at me from the front gate. I turned to her and called out "I'm coming" before I said goodbye to my friends who continued to wait for their parents to come pick them up. When I turned to say goodbye to Belinda, I subconsciously leaned in to give her a goodbye hug and she seem to simultaneously do the same. I skipped along the path holding my sister's hand as we made our way to the closest ice-cream parlor.
"What a big change of attitude since this morning. What's happen that made you so happy? and it seems you made quite a few friends especially close with the one hug before you left." questioned my sister as she watched me happily skipping beside her. I started recounting my day to her and how I felt that I made lifelong friends as well as how I felt a strange connection with Belinda. She explained to me how important and special friend that comes in our lives give off a unique feeling to people and if we get that feeling you would know that the person is someone that you would share lots of secrets with and become the best of friends through all the ups and downs. I thought about this for a moment and smile, I believed that what my sister said was true and continued to skip in my happy trance. As we reached, a pedestrian crossing I stayed next to my sister, humming and once the green light turned on I continued across the road skipping and humming along side my sister. She watched me, her eyes widened and mouth opened unable to believe what she had seen but she immediately drew back and smiled as she observed me skipping down the road to the parlor. Her smile slowly turned from a happy smile into a relief and glad smile as she seemed to notice a change in me that I hadn't even thought about it at the time but I gradually understood and noticed my personality began to change and adapt to my new school environment. I knew that this is the beginning of something new and something interesting as my story has only just began. 

Another Side Of The Story Preview

 I decided to write up a story. 

If you wanna often read this story then you should be aware that I won't update it often. 

This story is sort like a sequel to "Proving Your Love" and "Sweetest Love." 

However this story, does not involve the main character Belinda anymore. 

I usually but people I know into stories so that I could interest my friends who reads my blogs.

Therefore, I decided to change the name Gaara who was Belinda's love and husband 

in "Proving Your Love" and "Sweetest Love" to Roger.
Another name that would be change is Yuko from "Proving Your Love"

would be changed to Joel.
I also wanna note that in "Proving Your Love" another character name will be changed.
Which is Darren into Patrick.
Reminder thats only in "Proving Your Love" and
not in the story I am about to write up

I just wanna based the relationships in the story to real life therefore I can also picture it.
I hope my friend who I had wrote the previous 2 story for won't made the changes.

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Anyway, here is the Preview.
The past always seems to catch up to the future bring fear and dread.
A young girl name Dora, finds herself struggling throughly as her past seems
to always haunt her.
She needs to learning to let go of her past to move onto into her future.
She finds herself not alone on this journey as she meets two new people
that changes her life.
However she finds herself trapped in a difficult love triangle
even though she is indecisive, she needs listen to her heart
and find the one that will allow her to find the true happiness
she has been longing for.

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YaY, a new story.
I wonder if I would actually finish this one story. . .
Oh well. . .
I am only just starting it so please be patient as I write it up.
But it would take some time as I am busy with Uni and other things.
Also Hope I didn't make things confusing with the name change. >.<
Hope you enjoy once I update everything. :)