Another Side Of The Story Ch.3

" Let's go to the park." I called out to Darren. He stood behind me, his head still staring at the ground. He had been like that ever since we left the school and followed behind me like a shadow. Entering the park I tried many different activities that we would usually do in the past however he would just follow my actions mindlessly. After many futile attempts nothing seem to catch his attention or even get his mind of the miserable thoughts that might be roaming within his head. The sky was slowly darkening as the last light gradually became less visible beyond the horizon.
" It is getting late, we should get home." I mumbled as I felt disheartened from all the useless attempts to cheer Darren up. I forced myself to keep smiling and kept talking to him, trying to make him respond regardless how worthless my attempts were. The minute we got home, he walked ahead and left for his room, he never came out unless called for dinner. I looked at my mum feeling helpless however she gave me an encouraging looking at me as if she knew I would be able to break through his bubble and get him to return to his original personality. I took a deep breathe and tried to look optimistic, telling myself " I can do this. I can get him out of this phase. Believe Dora, you got this. Now I will have to just try again tomorrow, I know I can get through to him. . . Hopefully."

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A week went by and nothing I have done seem to have worked, I had even gotten Ryeowook, Yuki and Belinda to help me but he was unresponsive as always and continued to follow behind me like a shadow. The only time he left my side was when he need to go bathroom, recess, lunch or at home when he locked himself in his room. I was slowly beginning to lose hope but I knew that if I had lost hope than there is no chance in him walking out of his grief. 

" Come on Adorable, cheer up we got this, ok. Our hard work will pay of sooner or later. Just smile." comforted Belinda. 

" Your right Beautiful. If we can do this, no one else can. Lets give it another shot." I smiled as we made our way towards Darren who had been sitting at a bench staring at his sandwich without moving a single muscle.  

" Darren~" I called cheerfully even though I knew I wasn't getting a response out of him. 

" You know, Belinda and I were just talking about how you always sit alone. We thought you might like it if you can sat with us. You won't be alone as much and we can have lots of fun." I waited for a response but nothing. 

" You know you can play handball with Ryeowook. He is pretty good. . ." commented Belinda however there was still no response. 

" Come on. . ." said Belinda this time, she grabbed hold of his arm and lightly pulling his arm forward, trying to get him to move. However he shrugged her hand off and remain in place like he hadn't moved at all. 

" Come on Darren. You need to make some friends and you know move on with life. . ." 

" You think it is easy to forget what happened. You think it is easy to see your parents die right in front of you. Do you think I can forget that my parents jumped in front of me to protect me from getting hurt? You don't understand how much it hurts knowing that if it wasn't for me, they might just have survived. YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW BAD I FEEL TO KNOW THAT IF IT WASNT FOR ME THEY WOULD BE ALIVE. . . They jumped in front of me so. . . so that I wouldn't get stabbed by the metal pipe from wing of the airplane. . . It was my fault. . . MY FAULT!!!" Yelled out Darren. Everyone near by turn and faced us simultaneously to see what was all the yelling about. I stood there frozen, tears forcing its way out of my eyes but I tried, I tried so hard to stop them from streaming down my face but, my emotions got the better of me. I didn't know what to say cause every word he spoke felt like daggers piercing though my chest. Memories, pains, nightmares and all the horror flashed back to me in those few words and I couldn't hold them back. He unlocked that hidden chest I kept buried within my heart for these many years and everything inside just came pouring out. Belinda watched him in shock and look towards me with a knowing looked before her eyes saw red as she glared back at Darren.

" YOU THINK, YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO UNDERSTAND THESE FEELINGS. YOU DON'T THINK THERE MIGHT BE SOMEONE OUT THERE HE FEELS YOU AND UNDERSTANDS YOU. YOU DON'T EVEN THINK HOW HURTFUL YOUR WORDS TO SOMEONE WHO KNOWS EXACTLY HOW YOU FEEL. HOW COULD YOU JUST YELL AT YOUR CLOSEST FRIEND WHO TRYING HER BEST TO HELP YOU? HOW. . ." Belinda stopped halfway through her sentence as I had grabbed hold of her arm. She understood that I didn't want her to continue no more. 

" Don't. . . Don't worry. . . I. . . I understand. . . You need time alone and you. . . wish to deal with this by yourself. . . You don't want anyone to. . . ever come close to you cause you scared what they think when then know and your scared that you would hurt them too. You just don't wanna get close to anyone and feel like life is empty like you lost a part of you. . . I understand don't worry. . . Lets go Be. . . Beautiful." I stumbled as I felt that every word was crushing me and pushing me back to the dark days. I grabbed hold of Belinda's hand while wiping away the tears with my other before dragging her away from Darren and the stares of the people around us. Belinda didn't leave her position and stayed put so I walked away without her, feeling that I just need to get away from that place for a while, away from Darren. 

" Darren. . . Dora is trying so hard to help you walk out of your grief. She wants you to be happy and out of everyone in this world she knows you the best and how your feeling. But you keep pushing her away and gone as far as hurting her. I thought that you would have known better or at least knew her better than me. But I guess not. . . You are too caught with yourself that you don't think how others might be feeling. . . I understand. . . But I won't let you hurt my Adorable again." warned Belinda as she walked off following behind me.

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Belinda and I sat back with Yuki and Ryeowook who had also heard that yelling and watched me carefully, fully aware of my circumstance. I took a deep breathe trying to calm myself down before smiling at all of them.
" I'm fine, just a little shocked that's all. I need a few minutes to calm down." I reassured them. I fought back the tears that were determined to rush down my cheeks and forced a convincing smile. Yuki and Ryeowook look a little concerned for a few seconds before choosing to believe me but I noticed that Belinda was not convinced at all even though she choose to not bring anything up in case I start to break down. I knew she knew me well but I can't show how upset I was as all the feelings I used to feel before beginning primary school seem to all boil back to the surface and I didn't wanna feel this all over again. It is hard to lock up the chest once it has been open as everything hidden inside had spread all over the place. I just need some time to recompose myself. . . Hopefully soon.