Chapter 3: Memories, Memories are flowing back.
“ Dora, put your arms around my waist that way it is safer for you.” Darren instructed me as I hesitantly wrapped my arms around his waist. I hesitantly listened to Darren as he instructed me to hold on tighter until he was satisfied to start riding. I leaned my head against his muscular back as I suddenly felt so relaxed happy and at ease as I felt the wind brush across my face. This feeling of happiness I would never forget. The moment, I jumped of Darren’s bike and glance past the view in front me. I have realised that this was where I first met Darren when I was younger and the place where Darren, Alice and I love to hang out. Think about this, I immediately place my hand into my pocket and wrapping my fingers my most precious item that I keep with me wherever I go. I walked out onto the rocks looking over the beautiful, shinning vast ocean and the bright, yellow beach just below the cliffs. When we were younger we use to sit around the rock pool that was located in the middle of the cliffs surface. Watching and attempting to catch the sea creatures in the small rock pond.
“ I remember this place, with all our childhood memories.” I said cheerfully.
“ I knew, If I brought you here, it would cheer you up.” smiled Darren. I stood at the cliffs edge watching the clear skies and shining ocean as I felt the warm summer breeze brush through my hair. By the time I turn around I had just noticed that he was standing behind with a small jewellery box in his hand.
“ Dora, I have been putting this off for a long time. But today I have to tell you, I have to tell how I feel. I. . .”
“ STOP!!! Darren. . . I. . . I know what you want to say. But I can’t answer you yet because. . . because I. . . I don’t want things to change just yet. I don’t want anything to ruin the relationship we have right now. I’m. . . I’m sorry. Please give me some time to think about this first.” There was an awkward silence as we both stood in the same position without a single movement. I finally decided to break the silence and ask to be sent home so I can prepare dinner for Ella and Avelyn. The ride back was completely different to the feeling I had before. This time I had a feeling of unease from the bottom of my heart, the trip just made me feel more and more uncomfortable as we inched close to my house. Arriving in front the apartments front gates, I jumped of his bike and turned to walk inside until I was stopped. Darren swiftly grabbed hold of my wrist before I turned around to face him. He had this confused, depressed, worried, expression while he hesitantly place his gift in my hands. I paused for a few minutes looking down at this beautiful jewelry box meanwhile he raced off as fast as he could away from the apartment. I looked in the direction where he had raced off followed by a cool summer nights breeze blowing in the same direction. Gradually making my way inside the apartment, into the living room, up the stairs, following the hallway, in the warmth of my room. The entire time I stared at this box, Darren had gave me, not sure if I should open it. After staring at it for half an hour tossing back and forth wether I should open it or not, I finally made the decision to open it. Carefully and slowly opening the lid revealing a velvet cushion with a beautiful, silver necklace that was placed on it. The pendant was in a slightly slanted heart shape with small, white crystals on one edge of the heart and in the middle of the heart pendant there was a round, pink tourmaline. My heart had skipped a beat when I saw first caught a glimpse of the tourmaline. My first reaction was reach in my pocket grab out the object I held during the time I was at the cliff as memories of my past all flooded back in mind.
The first day of pre-school, I remember I was introduced to the whole class. My parent had dropped me off and left without a word. I was depressed to the point I didn’t care about anything and everyone could see it in my expression therefore no one dare to come close to me. When everyone was inside I was out when they where out I was in, the world seem like an empty place to me. It was after lunch and everyone else was inside resting while I decide to go out and play in the sand pit. Planning to dig myself a big hole that I could jumping into while I was in the middle of digging a shadow was cast over my head. I turned to see a young boy around my age probably older. I decided to ignore him and keep digging however he didn’t want to ignore me. jumping into the sand pit and helping me dig the hole. For a few minutes we had no conversation but soon after he decided to talk to me.
“ Why do you look so sad?” I didn’t answer him because I didn’t wanted to talk about it.
“ You know, everyone else is scared of you. Why don’t you want to play with everyone else?” I continued to ignore him as we dug the hole.
“ You know, I want to prove everyone wrong and. . .”
“ Why do you want to talk to me and why are you digging this hole with me?” I interrupted
“ Yay, you talked to me.” I turned to him confused why he was so happy at the fact I talked to him but his expression made me feel slightly happy.
“ I want to talk to you because I know that inside you want to be friends with someone and I want to be one of your friends because I think you would be very nice and you are very pretty.” I paused the minute he finished his sentence. I couldn’t believe what he had said because how would he know I would be nice and why did he think I was pretty. I had displayed such a horrible side of myself and yet he still wants to approach me. I watched him as he smiled at me and he continued to the dig the hole. Slowly I felt a smile start to appear on my face, I felt happy and something different that I couldn’t explain. The next few days I would enter the class with a smile as the little boy would come and play with me. Not long after I have become friends with the entire class as we played together everyday. That little boy was Darren.
During my pre-school years, there was a day where it was a family day and we all went to the nearby beach. Every child had there parents with them, everyone except me, apparently I wasn’t as important as my brother. They were meant to come but my brother purposely pretended to be sick so that they wouldn’t leave him alone at home. I climbed up the cliff and once I reached the top I looked down at the beautiful ocean and the many happy families on the beach. All that came to my head was, why didn’t I have a happy family, why did my brother had to ruin my day of fun. I finally decided what I should do.
“ If I jumped down from here and get hurt. Then they will notice me and care about me not my stupid brother. Yes that is what I would do.” Step by step I walked close to the edge but at the last minute I felt a hand around my wrist pulled me back. I twirled around before falling into Darren arms just like we were ballroom dancing.
“ Dora, what are you doing? I know you are upset but don’t worry you have me. I will accompany. I don’t want to see you hurt or upset.” He said, I looked into his eyes as he said that and I felt something warm inside. The both of us sat on the edge of the cliff watching the waves splashing onto the sandy beach. We were both there for quite awhile towards the end, Darren reached into his pocket and took at a cylindrical Tourmaline.
“ Here, this is for you. It is said to bring the owner of this happiness and. . . something else I can’t remember. That isn’t the point, the point is it would bring u happiness so keep it. I hope it would work.” He placed the small, cylindrical tourmaline in my hand as he smiled happily at me. It was there I found my happiness and I truly believed him that this small crystal would bring me happiness and I have kept it by my side everyday.
Remember such happy memories, brought tears to my eyes. Darren was always so nice to me, ever since the first day we meet. So why am I so hesitant in accepting his feelings, I obviously feel the same way. I am really afraid to loss him, the first friend I ever had, the guy that have changed my life around. Or should I be thinking that I want to be with him. The guy that can give me everlasting happiness. My heart is torn, I don’t know what to do. I am afraid of change, I definitely don’t want to lose a friend like him. What should I do?
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